padfoot_moony83

monday i went to my doctor appointment and my blood pressure was higher than the last time so i had to come back to see him today and it went down a little so that's good news.. i have to go back monday so he can check it again.. sucks because i have to have so many appointments now so the doctor can keep a close eye on my blood pressure.. it's for my own good but it's kind of annoying trying to find people to take me and what not.  Lisle came home today to take me to my appointment because I was worried i'd have to go upstairs for more tests and i needed him with me, but turns out i'm doing a little better so nothing had to be done yet.  he has to leave friday already and then he'll be home on the 23rd i guess, that seems like forever for me because i'm sick of being alone mainly because i'm huge and don't want to do anything for myself anymore.  plus i just like having him around, but that isn't going to change anytime soon i guess.  he gave me a bubble bath tonight, it was so relaxing, it's been a long time since i had a bath.  i'm sick of feeling paranoid, i feel like Lisle is keeping something from me, mainly because last weekend i knew he was with some of his truck friends in wisconsin and he didn't answer his phone the whole night and i grew suspicious, i still have a weird feeling in my stomach about something but it could just be my hormones i dont know..something just doesn't feel right but he says there's nothing going on so what can i do.  i can't believe i'm going to be a mom in three weeks, i'm so not ready but at the same time i can't wait any longer to see him, i'm so nervous and i'm scared to death because my life is about to change in a huge way and i'll never get it back, but i guess the only way to go is forward and hope for the best.  i hope me and Lisle become closer and not have a hard time being parents together, i'd hate for this to be the end of our relationship like some other couples, we've been through hard times and made it through so i don't know why this would be any different.  as long as we make sure we have time to ourselves and talk to each other.. well i think i'm going to watch tv, he's laying in bed and i need to get him off his butt to go downstairs with me.  peace!

I love the end of July, something about my birthday makes me excited again and it usually starts a week or so before the actual day.  So I went to my doctor appointment on Friday, I heard the heartbeat again and I got my blood tested for downs syndrome and a few other chromosome thingys, I find out the results next Friday.  I gained five more pounds, they were happy about that and that's about all that happened.  My ultrasound is scheduled for August 25, the day I finally get to see my baby and find out if it's a boy or a girl so I'm excited for that.  Then on the 31st of August I have another regular checkup.  So when I get back from NY I'll have two appointments to go to plus I have to register for child birth classes even though I don't go until I'm seven months or so.  This week I'm going shopping for clothes and I'm hoping I can find a few outfits for a good price because I don't have too much money to work with and I won't have my birthday money until I get to NY.  I'm stopping by Old Navy first even though usually their clothes are too expensive, sometimes you can find good deals.  Let's see what else has happened... I have so much to do this week, I have to pack, take Zoey to the vet, stop by the kennel to drop things off and other little things that have to be done before I leave.. then early Saturday morning we're taking off to NY, which means we have to drop Zoey off at his parents, blah.  She's going to the kennel for a few days in August though because they're going to be gone for 12 hours and Zoey can't be alone that long.  Hopefully my family and I are going to Enchanted Forest in two weeks, I can't ride anything but it'll still be nice to go even though Lisle won't be there :(  I have no idea what we're going to do when he gets into town, we won't have a vehicle.  I won't want to be walking around all the time in the heat either, I hope Tracy doesn't expect me to.  Well I think that's about it.. this Friday is my birthday and I have so much to do!  I hope I can relax and eat a ice cream cake at least.  Peace!

I'm pretty excited, I'm going to NY July 29, I'll be there the next day where my mom and Leonard are picking me up in Binghamton and I'm staying until August 19.  Only sad part is leaving Zoey at Lisle's mom's again, I hate doing it but I don't have another choice, at least this will be my last trip to NY until we move next year and she'll be coming for that.  Lisle will be in Norwich August 13-19 for his week vacation then we're heading back to Wisconsin.  So I'll be there for three whole weeks, let's hope no one makes me cry, I'm sure I will though.  It's sad that I come all the way out to visit them and they try to tear me down to make me feel worthless, what kind of parent does that to their kid?  Not to mention I'm going to be 23 years old soon, quit treating me like a teenager who doesn't know how the world works.  I'm excited to see how my baby shower goes, and what kind of stuff I get, that should be interesting.  I wanted to know if I was having a boy or a girl first but I'm not sure what they'll do next Friday at my appointment.  If I have an ultrasound then they might be able to tell.  I read that I might feel the baby move anytime now, I'm waiting, it's hard to tell what might be the baby and might just be gas lol.  It doesn't move enough for Lisle to feel it yet, it's still too small.  What a gloomy day, it's all dark and rainy, I had to get out of bed by noon because my landlord was coming over to check to see what it'd take to hook up a washer and dryer for me.  I told him we're not going to move until next year so he's pretty happy he doesn't have to find someone else to move in.  We're going to change the living room into our bedroom, put up big tapestries to seperate the bedroom and the dining room which will be the new living room and the baby will have the room we are in now.  It'll be a weird set up but it's better than sleeping in the same room with the baby and being all crowded.  I can't wait to start moving things around and setting up the baby's room.  Yuck I feel weird like I need sleep but I slept enough even if I did keep waking up, I've been having bad leg cramps in my one leg everytime I sleep so I wake up in pain and I feel like I need to move it, they say it's pretty common in pregnancy I just didn't think I'd be feeling it yet.  I need to buy one of those big pregnancy pillows, they fit your whole body on it.  I also need to buy new pants, I only have one pair of jeans that sort of fit and a few jogging pants but I won't wear them out in public.  I'm going to check out the maternity store and see what I can find.  I could use some new tank tops too, all the ones I have my belly is starting to pop out underneath and that's not exactly a good look lol.  Well I suppose I'll go watch tv and lay down for a while.  Peace!

It's early but I was just looking through news articles online to figure out what really happened yesterday with the weather.  Around like 2:30 or so a tornado warning flashed across my screen, which surprised the hell out of me because I didn't even think anyone was getting storms, the warning was for four counties, three of them just to the west of me moving south east ( right in my direction).  I started freaking, not again!!  This just happened maybe like two weeks ago in the same area just about.. the other warning was for up north of Milwaukee, about maybe thirty miles from the city I live in but i figured that one wouldn't bother me because storms don't usually move straight south.  So about thirty minutes later the warnings expired for the counties next to Racine County and I could finally breathe normally.. it didn't even storm here, just some rain.  They said there were several funnel clouds about 60 miles west of here, I haven't heard of any damage by them or the tornado the spotters said they saw but I did see the damage up north of Milwaukee on tv, it was only a F1 but 50 homes were damaged, they lost power, trees were everywhere and a school and a hotel were damaged, no one died though, just a old man broke his hip but he's okay.  It's not even summer yet and this is the third tornado day this year so far with actual tornadoes.. which isn't bad to some but to me it's a big deal.  I'm not used to seeing tornado warnings flash across my tv!  At least it didn't get tooo close to us here, it hasn't yet.. so I'll keep praying.  Wisconsin wasn't even in a severe storm watch box or anything, that's what happened last time too, so I feel bad for the people who get hit first because there isn't much warning, at least with living near the lake we have more time usually to prepare.  Well I just thought I'd let people know about it, it's pretty interesting to me, I just wish I was out there with the storm chasers instead of being scared in my house not knowing what the hell is going to happen.  I think I'd feel better if I could actually see the tornado and know exactly where it is.  As stupid as that sounds.  Well I think I'll go back to sleep for a few hours, I stayed up late talking to Lisle and his friend who was talking on the CB.. it was a pretty funny conversation :)  Peace.